blessings

It’s always easier to remember the bad things that have happened to you instead of the good. I always have a hard time remembering the positive things that have happened to me, and and even harder time letting go of the bad things. So I’m making a list of blessings for this week:

• i got to talk with my best friend from high school for a little bit
• spent time with my friends at Ball State’s carnival (and ate a funnel cake)
• went to my sorority’s formal!
• BSUDM won Ball State’s “Student Organization of the Year“
• went to talk with my first HS advisor for my director position on Dance Marathon
• celebrated NATIONAL GRILLED CHEESE DAY (what a time to be alive)
• someone told me that I reminded them of Leslie Knope from Parks and Rec (CASUAL)
• laughed and smiled a lot

Things will not always go my way, and there’s nothing I can do about that. There will always be factors that I cannot control. The factor that I can control is my own happiness. “You are the captain of your own ship.” Choose happiness 🙂

matthew 6: 33-34

“But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.” This verse talks about how Christ will always sustain us. Why should we worry about tomorrow, when we should be focused on the present? Our Heavenly Father sustains birds that do not sow or reap; we need to have the faith that Jesus will sustain us. 

This was one of the verses my Mother always used to remind me of when I was worrying. My Mother passed away when I was 13; she fought breast cancer and multiple infections she contracted while staying in a hospital. Through all of this, she never worried because she had faith. Her faith was what sustained her; I can’t think of a time where my Mom did not have a positive attitude.

In my own life, I try to take into consideration what my Mom would do. She wouldn’t worry, she would be brave, and would have a positive attitude.

for what i want, i can wait

I’ve recently changed my blog URL to this image that I found while browsing Pinterest. I’m trying to take this blog in another direction than the one I started this blog with. Many things have changed in my life, and I feel like my blog needed to get with the times! I was running URL ideas past my friend McKinsey (most of which were taken of course), but this one thankfully wasn’t. In my earlier posts, you may have noticed how I always feel like I need to be one step ahead of the game. But I’ve recently realized, that good things take time. Jesus has a plan for everyone, and I need to rest on the fact that he has a perfect plan for me! So for what I want, I can wait. 

Side note – hope you enjoy my blog!

psalm 139

I got the idea yesterday from a friend to start writing a bible verse on my wrist. Everyday you write a verse that you want to keep on your mind. Starting now, I’m going to try to post a reflection on my daily verse here to keep it on my heart. The verse I chose today was Psalm 139:23-24. It reads, “Search me, God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.”

I struggle with the fear of the unknown. I worry constantly about what tomorrow may bring, or what my future may look like. Ask my friends: they’re always surprised when I’m not worried about a certain situation. This fear of the unknown and worry stems from my longing for perfection. For as long as I can remember, I’ve struggled with the search for perfection. I feel like if I can be that perfect person then more people will like me, etc.

In reality, the only perfect person in this world is Jesus. Why worry about how perfect we need to be, when we cannot compare to the perfection that surrounds Him? He knows our innermost thoughts and what we struggle with and leads us on the path of righteousness.